Vainity?

I woke up this morning and realized it is almost July. Where did June go? It was a blur of VBS, hospital, funeral and family.

Grandma's funeral went very well. I was, however, reminded once again of the extra stress and difficulty a broken home continues to cause. But we made it through very nicely. One thing that surprised me at the viewing was how good Grandma looked. I usually try to avoid looking at the body, because it doesn't look like them. No offense to the people who work very hard to make the body look good, but death takes it's toll. But Grandma looked so good. It was the first time I have honestly expected the body to just, sit up and say, "Ha ha, I got you!" She looked like when she would fall asleep sitting in her chair reading a book. If you made a noise she would start with that little, "Oh!" Super kudos to the staff at Wade Family Funeral Home in Arlington. Grandma looked great, you were incredibly helpful, and you even stood out in that awful heat in your suits at the graveside!

I've been doing very good for the past 3 weeks, in spite of all the chaos, to get up and do my work out, AND get dressed (presentably) and ready for the day. I am rather proud of myself if I do say so. I went out and bought a new dress, and all new accessories to be sure I looked appropriate for the funeral. All this taking care of myself is starting to feel a little vain though. I've been a slob for so long, it feels weird. I suppose I'll have to get used to it. Overall, I really do feel good about myself. I may not be the skinniest, or the prettiest, or the most stylish. But trying feels good. Being active feels good. Keeping my home clean feels good. That's right, I have kept my home clean - CLEAN - for the past 3 weeks! I like this new me, I hope I can keep her around. Because I know I can learn to love her.

January 29, 2011

Well, another week has come and gone. I'm feeling pretty proud of myself today. I got up early and did a full work out this morning, cleaned up and fixed myself up - even though we didn't go anywhere. I've cooked to big meals today. After 3 days of the machines running non stop I am caught up on laundry. The house is as clean as it needs to be. It's been a pretty relaxing day :)

As far as my goals for this week, I walked twice at the increased speed but once at the old speed. The increased speed was making the incline too hard (i.e. requiring my inhaler) and I'd rather keep the incline than the speed. I did a resistance workout I found online twice. It is killing my legs!! I'm not sure about my arms though. I've decided not to mess with the yoga anymore, because somehow it's making my back hurt. Must be doing something wrong, but I'd need a professional to fix it. So I definitely met one goal completely. The other two I'll be modifying for next week. Hopefully pretty soon I'll figure out a workout schedule that works for me and makes me work!

January 26, 2011

Ah, the newness of the blog is already wearing off. Missed two days in a row posting :( But then again if I try to share every single detail, it will soon become boring!

This week is turning out to be pretty stressful. Hubby was sick over the weekend, and once he got well one of the boys started with it. So I'm trying to juggle a sick child, homeschooling, preparing a meal at church, and changing my lifestyle.

I must admit, in the eating healthy category, I definitely caved yesterday. I took the boys to McDonald's and had a huge unhealthy burger. But we've been eating out a lot less, and I'm learning to make healthier choices when we do (most of the time). For instance, I went to Taco Bueno Saturday. Instead of the nacho salad I used to get (759 calories and 48 grams of fat!) I now choose the chicken tortilla soup (237 calories and 11 grams of fat).

I walked Monday and Wednesday mornings as planned. But Hubby is off early this week, and when we had an opportunity for a date Tuesday night I totally bailed on the yoga and weight training. A few weeks ago the combination of diet fail and exercise schedule bail would have knocked me totally off the wagon. But this is different. It's about becoming a better, healthier person. And that includes healthy relationships, which means I did not bail on a better me! So getting up this morning to walk was no problem :)

I have until Saturday night to meet my exercise goals, which is totally doable. I am learning that with 3 boys and a very disorganized husband, I just cannot schedule every minute. And that is ok.

January 23, 2011

Not too bad a day. Got everybody up and ready for Sunday School on time. Sat in church for about 5 minutes, but the Squirt was in a VERY vocal mood and Hubby's cough was coming back with a vengeance. So we headed home. Had to cancel lunch with Mother-in-Law too. Apparently Pneumonia is going around at Hubby's garage. Not cool. So I've spent the rest of the day trying to baby him. Not a great start to the week, but I know it's not going to be a good week anyway. Hubby has training at work, so he'll be going in extra early. But, I'm ready to make the best of it.

Goals for this week - treadmill x 3, increase speed by .5, yoga x 2, weight training x 2

January 22, 2011

I am so excited and proud of myself right now!!! I did something today I had never believed I could. I walked 5 miles in 1 hour and 40 minutes on my treadmill! It is amazing the difference attitude makes. When I am on the treadmill to try to punish myself I've never made it more than 30 minutes, 2 miles. But when I focused on taking care of myself, it felt so good to just keep walking! Of course now I am exhausted, but it's a good exhausted :)

As far as my goals for the week, I got on the treadmill only 2 times. But the second time was 5 miles! So I'm not feeling too bad about that right now. And I did yoga 2 times, so I met that goal :)

January 21, 2011

Ugh. Long day. It started at 5am when my precious little Squirt came running through the house screaming "Daddy! Daddy! Daddy!" but running strait to me. He practically jumped into my arms and wrapped his little arms around my neck and held on as tight as he could for about 15 minutes. I finally got him calmed down enough to just sit in my lap, but he was not the slightest bit interested in going back to sleep. Must have been a doozy of a nightmare :(

And taking care of myself kind of got pushed to the back burner. I did not eat well, or get my treadmill time. But, we got some schoolwork done. And we made gingerbread houses, which the boys LOVED. So the day was not a total loss. But I do have some catching up to do...

January 18, 2011

Got up extra early today to spend time taking care of myself :) I had time for Bible Study, Yoga, cleaning, and cooking breakfast before our Portrait sitting for the church directory. It feels good knowing I took care of myself and my family this morning, even if we did have to rush a little.

January 17, 2011

So, I'm learning to take care of myself. Thanks to a very wise friend, I have begun to view exercise differently. It is not punishment. It is time I spend taking care of myself. Thanks to this dear friend I have begun to enjoy my time exercising much more. And it is a lot easier to get up in the morning and exercise!

Goal for the week - Treadmill 3x, Yoga 2x